2010年7月29日 星期四 晴
昨晚9多许，回复了一个耽搁好几天的信息。之所以耽搁其信息，就因为早前在面子书上所写的“讨厌写长信息后得到一封又短又没内容的信息”。昨天回复了。还说明要点周末节目。怎知得来的却是，“我不要计划，没兴趣，做完应作的事，不就回家咯”经过三番四次的劝说及要求，始终得不到许可。就连到最后，我想要做的，给与优先权的资格都给磨灭了。我那么好给那么优先机会，尽然被拒绝。没有生气，只有无言与默默地把不舒服的心情吞进肚子里。既然最后的机会都不把握，那么我也不用保留了。今天午夜12点15分，发出了最后一封信息。那封信息很显然的在告诉他人‘游戏结束’。游戏已被终止了，而我也不要玩下去了。虽然我破了我的之前的誓言， 我想要在8-7后做个了断，但我已不等了。眼前一看，只有独角戏的游戏是不能玩下去的。虽然不知道那位玩家是怎么想，怎么看，现在心情的我，也不想去闻去问。反正挽回的责任已不在我身上。任何通讯联络尽不再连接。唯独登门造访。
游戏结束。接下来就是慢慢地把这场游戏的软记忆与硬记忆给删除。在不在乎已不在于我这个小丑了。
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
===尽===静===
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人人都有所烦之事。我也不例外。我并没烦，感觉罢了。
什么出外靠朋友的话，有时真的不可信。路有冻死骨，自扫门前雪的道理其实是有的。经历那么多事，自己也都渐渐觉悟。我自认自己也不是什么好人，不会观察，不会了解，不会照顾，不会理会，不会关心都可以挂在我身上。我也偏心。但，有人提了，就一定学着去改。
友人好言相劝，诸多不听，久而久之，没心了，好言相劝就演变成不理不睬。本人正面对这个问题。不管是好言相劝或是其他的事，能做的，能帮得，已经===尽===了。===尽===了，尽了，也变成===静===了。我已经===静===了。不像直接尽所能了。感谢另一位朋友的协助，她帮了我。。帮我尽了些绵力。。
个人觉得将自己的小小绵力交由他人帮忙，或许可以达到更好的效果。毕竟我的言语也许不堪入耳，或是不能听取。若是我的言语可以听取的，终该有点回应在我的来电吧？？无言。。
有句话“来者不善，善者不来”。也许我是来者。因为不善，所以不需要被理会吧。。
对于这事，终该有个了断。
一，逐渐===静===了的我，对于以往的称呼于他人，根本难于启齿。
二，逐渐===静===了的我，想知与关心的，也被逼选择不要去知道与问。
三，逐渐===静===了的我，对于以往什么都说的自己，如今要保持缄默，与时钟一起奋斗。时钟会把它带走。
所以，===尽===力了，慢慢===静===下的我，我是否应该不要再做上述第二点呢？放弃第一点，也放弃其人。能做都做尽了，毕竟我已经帮够多了。我应该选择==离开==。8-7后，应该自我作个了断了。给自己，也给其人这三个星期的时间。也许应该一位友人的劝告，不值得就是不值得，不值得也就不需要，不需要就只是少这么一个罢了。
人人都有所烦之事。我也不例外。我并没烦，感觉罢了。
什么出外靠朋友的话，有时真的不可信。路有冻死骨，自扫门前雪的道理其实是有的。经历那么多事，自己也都渐渐觉悟。我自认自己也不是什么好人，不会观察，不会了解，不会照顾，不会理会，不会关心都可以挂在我身上。我也偏心。但，有人提了，就一定学着去改。
友人好言相劝，诸多不听，久而久之，没心了，好言相劝就演变成不理不睬。本人正面对这个问题。不管是好言相劝或是其他的事，能做的，能帮得，已经===尽===了。===尽===了，尽了，也变成===静===了。我已经===静===了。不像直接尽所能了。感谢另一位朋友的协助，她帮了我。。帮我尽了些绵力。。
个人觉得将自己的小小绵力交由他人帮忙，或许可以达到更好的效果。毕竟我的言语也许不堪入耳，或是不能听取。若是我的言语可以听取的，终该有点回应在我的来电吧？？无言。。
有句话“来者不善，善者不来”。也许我是来者。因为不善，所以不需要被理会吧。。
对于这事，终该有个了断。
一，逐渐===静===了的我，对于以往的称呼于他人，根本难于启齿。
二，逐渐===静===了的我，想知与关心的，也被逼选择不要去知道与问。
三，逐渐===静===了的我，对于以往什么都说的自己，如今要保持缄默，与时钟一起奋斗。时钟会把它带走。
所以，===尽===力了，慢慢===静===下的我，我是否应该不要再做上述第二点呢？放弃第一点，也放弃其人。能做都做尽了，毕竟我已经帮够多了。我应该选择==离开==。8-7后，应该自我作个了断了。给自己，也给其人这三个星期的时间。也许应该一位友人的劝告，不值得就是不值得，不值得也就不需要，不需要就只是少这么一个罢了。
'first' blog in 2010
July 13, 2010 Tuesday Sunny day
After the day of my birthday in 2009, it had been a long period i din log in here and write a blog here. Once came in, i read comment from mervin. he said he missed my comment on his blog. Very sorry to him, since 28th dec 2009, i was busy and no mood to enter here. even now, i also dun know i will enter here again after this blog or not.
This half year of 2010, there were many incidents occured on me. we are all seprated from ukm since 7 June 2010. Say truly, it was very sad to separate each other. I was deeply sad when we were all in the sing-K session in Redbox Sunway Pyramid. No one know. After that, some of us went for Penang trip. Until 13th June, i really left UKM. Moved out everything from Saturday to Sunday. The feeling was not good actually.
14th June, i started my working life in Schaefer Malaysia. Until now, i had finished the first month. Very thank to someone that concerned about my first month and asked me.. Thanks, girl!
We were all worrying about the convocation status and so, i made severeal calls to ukm to ask for details. After asking, it can be said that we are not need to worry as everything will be settle by this week. So, just happy-waiting for convocation.
During this one month, i had been stress for about 2 weeks plus for the mistake i did in the work and so i fall sick for 2 days. Unluckily, i felt 'sicky' today..
After the day of my birthday in 2009, it had been a long period i din log in here and write a blog here. Once came in, i read comment from mervin. he said he missed my comment on his blog. Very sorry to him, since 28th dec 2009, i was busy and no mood to enter here. even now, i also dun know i will enter here again after this blog or not.
This half year of 2010, there were many incidents occured on me. we are all seprated from ukm since 7 June 2010. Say truly, it was very sad to separate each other. I was deeply sad when we were all in the sing-K session in Redbox Sunway Pyramid. No one know. After that, some of us went for Penang trip. Until 13th June, i really left UKM. Moved out everything from Saturday to Sunday. The feeling was not good actually.
14th June, i started my working life in Schaefer Malaysia. Until now, i had finished the first month. Very thank to someone that concerned about my first month and asked me.. Thanks, girl!
We were all worrying about the convocation status and so, i made severeal calls to ukm to ask for details. After asking, it can be said that we are not need to worry as everything will be settle by this week. So, just happy-waiting for convocation.
During this one month, i had been stress for about 2 weeks plus for the mistake i did in the work and so i fall sick for 2 days. Unluckily, i felt 'sicky' today..
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