Game Over!!!!

2010年7月29日 星期四 晴

昨晚9多许，回复了一个耽搁好几天的信息。之所以耽搁其信息，就因为早前在面子书上所写的“讨厌写长信息后得到一封又短又没内容的信息”。昨天回复了。还说明要点周末节目。怎知得来的却是，“我不要计划，没兴趣，做完应作的事，不就回家咯”经过三番四次的劝说及要求，始终得不到许可。就连到最后，我想要做的，给与优先权的资格都给磨灭了。我那么好给那么优先机会，尽然被拒绝。没有生气，只有无言与默默地把不舒服的心情吞进肚子里。既然最后的机会都不把握，那么我也不用保留了。今天午夜12点15分，发出了最后一封信息。那封信息很显然的在告诉他人‘游戏结束’。游戏已被终止了，而我也不要玩下去了。虽然我破了我的之前的誓言， 我想要在8-7后做个了断，但我已不等了。眼前一看，只有独角戏的游戏是不能玩下去的。虽然不知道那位玩家是怎么想，怎么看，现在心情的我，也不想去闻去问。反正挽回的责任已不在我身上。任何通讯联络尽不再连接。唯独登门造访。

游戏结束。接下来就是慢慢地把这场游戏的软记忆与硬记忆给删除。在不在乎已不在于我这个小丑了。

===尽===静===

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人人都有所烦之事。我也不例外。我并没烦，感觉罢了。

什么出外靠朋友的话，有时真的不可信。路有冻死骨，自扫门前雪的道理其实是有的。经历那么多事，自己也都渐渐觉悟。我自认自己也不是什么好人，不会观察，不会了解，不会照顾，不会理会，不会关心都可以挂在我身上。我也偏心。但，有人提了，就一定学着去改。

友人好言相劝，诸多不听，久而久之，没心了，好言相劝就演变成不理不睬。本人正面对这个问题。不管是好言相劝或是其他的事，能做的，能帮得，已经===尽===了。===尽===了，尽了，也变成===静===了。我已经===静===了。不像直接尽所能了。感谢另一位朋友的协助，她帮了我。。帮我尽了些绵力。。

个人觉得将自己的小小绵力交由他人帮忙，或许可以达到更好的效果。毕竟我的言语也许不堪入耳，或是不能听取。若是我的言语可以听取的，终该有点回应在我的来电吧？？无言。。

有句话“来者不善，善者不来”。也许我是来者。因为不善，所以不需要被理会吧。。

对于这事，终该有个了断。
一，逐渐===静===了的我，对于以往的称呼于他人，根本难于启齿。
二，逐渐===静===了的我，想知与关心的，也被逼选择不要去知道与问。
三，逐渐===静===了的我，对于以往什么都说的自己，如今要保持缄默，与时钟一起奋斗。时钟会把它带走。

所以，===尽===力了，慢慢===静===下的我，我是否应该不要再做上述第二点呢？放弃第一点，也放弃其人。能做都做尽了，毕竟我已经帮够多了。我应该选择==离开==。8-7后，应该自我作个了断了。给自己，也给其人这三个星期的时间。也许应该一位友人的劝告，不值得就是不值得，不值得也就不需要，不需要就只是少这么一个罢了。

'first' blog in 2010

July 13, 2010 Tuesday Sunny day

After the day of my birthday in 2009, it had been a long period i din log in here and write a blog here. Once came in, i read comment from mervin. he said he missed my comment on his blog. Very sorry to him, since 28th dec 2009, i was busy and no mood to enter here. even now, i also dun know i will enter here again after this blog or not.

This half year of 2010, there were many incidents occured on me. we are all seprated from ukm since 7 June 2010. Say truly, it was very sad to separate each other. I was deeply sad when we were all in the sing-K session in Redbox Sunway Pyramid. No one know. After that, some of us went for Penang trip. Until 13th June, i really left UKM. Moved out everything from Saturday to Sunday. The feeling was not good actually.

14th June, i started my working life in Schaefer Malaysia. Until now, i had finished the first month. Very thank to someone that concerned about my first month and asked me.. Thanks, girl!

We were all worrying about the convocation status and so, i made severeal calls to ukm to ask for details. After asking, it can be said that we are not need to worry as everything will be settle by this week. So, just happy-waiting for convocation.

During this one month, i had been stress for about 2 weeks plus for the mistake i did in the work and so i fall sick for 2 days. Unluckily, i felt 'sicky' today..

99的部落格

2009年12月28日 星期一 晴

好久好久没写部落格了，自9月7日之后。。这个第四年第一学期真的过很快、很喘、很压力。。好多好多的功课需要在这被缩短的学期里完毕。朋友说我做东西慢，是咯，还蛮慢的，没有推动力咯，真没用！这个学期收风很慢，很多事都慢几拍才接受到，是显得咯。不喜欢这样。很庆幸的学业问题，功课问题等其他问题都有好友帮忙解忧些。很感谢咯。大家是压力的，因为这个学期真的让人很喘气，大家互相帮忙也还好了。。哈哈哈~~

昨天我23岁了。到现在我都还没许愿呢！真的很高兴因为中六那班死党又为我庆祝生日了，加上两位贵宾。不错啦，两位贵宾看起来都很尽兴。似乎每年都被他们弄到肮肮脏脏的，可以不要了吗？！那天我真的很抗拒啊，想到要被压，又被砸肮脏，就有点显掉。。那天大家似乎很high哦？！喝了茶又唱两场K。。一直到凌晨3点，这可是我们大家第一次做的事！！！不错嘛。。下次聚会可以考虑做整天呢！看戏，唱K，喝茶，吃东西。一天从早搞定到晚！

27号，我回到UKM了。原定今天28号要开始的论文实验 不能开始，也就因为料子问题。工人没能把它给割好。真失望！不能开工！明天也不知能不能开工呢！因为傍晚时分收到消息说一天都没割好！今天还好能够看场电影，否则我早就神经了！现在就已经快开始神经了。明天还是个未知数。。。不想拖累其他组咧。。否则后面的老板娘骂我啊。。

4th year started

September 7, 2009 Monday Sunny

My 4th year started with two-day class last week. Is it very good to have 3-day class (Monday to Wednesday) in one week? For some persons, it is very good because they can go back to their hometown. But, people who stay faraway from here? They will take time to go back. They are also thinking of going back. I had five boring days from Thursday until today.. "Luckily", yesterday got programme. But, it seem bad.. Bored too.. Not go out seem better than go out.. Bored until.... Went out with bored person nia... Diam sahaja...

Thesis is coming... Hope i can settle it well...

Internship completed

August 29, 2009 Saturday Sunny

It was too fast... A 20-week internship of mine was just completed on Friday. Felt it so fast. Gonna to continue the 4th year studies at 1st September. Say truly, not wanna to go back UKM and study.. I admit that i was too enjoy in working there.. What kind of feeling i encountered, but most of it were happy. Is that my future working life style after 9 months from now? The feeling not go back for study is getting strong. Although the training period was so enjoyable, the bore feeling was still there once i get back home or weekend. Thanks, my friends whoever asked me out to have a drink, to have a stroll in the mall or else. Thank to some friends who also willing to listen to my voices in the phone, even thankful to those who called me initially. But, why must i call initially? Why not someone asked initially? Is it really no topic between us more? Why we cant be that mode likewise last two years? Really DNMH, DNLM. It made me feel not wanna go back too.

These 20 weeks of training, the main thing i learned was Drive-In system. This is the system i most familiar with. Sedikit sedikit lama lama jadi bukit. Thank all Schaefer colleagues for giving me co-operation. Manager Eer is a busy man... he is not manage to teach me in many.. Most of the things need to learned by self. 'Try to convince yourself if you found out something is amiss in your calculation. Asking self why. No any value can simply be plucked and use.' These are what he commented on my presentation. Thank to Priya who helped me a lot. Fu and Ang are the persons who taught me, worked with me, discussed with me and etc. Say truly, some days really felt stressful in doing some works.. Even felt dizzy. But it did not mean that i scared. Just i could foresee how stressful of the work.

Anyhow, I will be back there after 9 months. No feeling for leaving Schaefer temporarily. Looking forward to go back there.

嗯。。。

2009年7月29日 星期三 晴

上星期在msn上写上"My colleague asked me a funny question"。感谢几位有心的朋友问我为什么。上星期的某一天的早间，同事Fu问我，“你的工作到现在又停过吗？”那个时候已经快要中午12点了。突如其来的问题让我反应不过来。他重新问过后，我才回复他说，“没。”其实，那天我的工作一直进，一直进，而我也没停止工作过。同事Fu给的工作，经理给的工作，让我没能喘个气。而在下午，且发生了一件巧合之事。因为同事Fu不在房里，有两位同事A和B就向着我说，“Teo，如果你实习完了，Fu 和经理就少了少了助手了啊！”那就辛苦咯。怎知，5分钟后，Fu 回来了，第一句话就和我说，“Teo，如果你回去读书了，没了你，我怎么工作？！”哈哈！我的第一个反应就是吓倒了！怎么他和另两个所说的话是一样的？而且，会不会太夸张些？还真有趣。

这三个星期，也不知道为什么就是每天加班，加半小时，加一小时不等。虽然是很少，但已经是很难见了。因为我不能加班，加班没有加班费的咯。工作负担重了些，多了些，所以就加班了。哈哈！好在加班让我学到更多东西。今天原本还想拿假载妈妈和妹妹去BP作护照的，但昨天有工作进来，指定今天一定要完成。虽说今天要完成，庆幸地我当然完成了；但，今天的工作竟然多到惊讶。平时只有2，3个任务罢了，怎知今天竟然有7个任务！结果，完成6个任务就走人。明天才继续第7个任务，因为那个试验分析需花上最少2个小时才能完成。聪明的我，当然回家啦。这几个星期蛮累的，喉咙也不适。

4个月呆在永平，几乎变成“蜘蛛侠”了，因为周末窝在家里，似个宅男，似个自闭儿了，蜘蛛都在我身上织网了！不过，很高兴得是，看见妹妹的努力，看见妹妹的用功，她的学业进步了。还发现，他的脑筋变聪明了哦。现在跟他解释时，他都能容易明白，也会尝试去思考了。换是以前，我就快疯了咯。很努力做数学习题等。不过呢，多在都是数学。如果，她能够在小六会考中拿得A的话，就好了！就扫我的前耻了。很差的我，小六没能取得A等在数学科目当中。也希望阿妹其他科目也可以考好！

A little bit tired

July 20, 2009 Monday Sunny

Few days i had worked for OT.. yes, i could not finish my work at the particular day. yes, why not i continue it on another day? aha.. i wanted to finish it on that particular day. this two weeks, i was quite busy a bit. works were coming from manager and my colleague. work from manager regarding Drive-In FEM upgrade. Many works involved here. Many things i learned from here too. Today i learned the actual steps for issuing a project. From D&E-Planning-Production-QA-Planning-Production-Tooling-QA-Warehouse-Shipping, indirectly go to Finance, Purchasing and System&Procedure too... need pass form, BOM, drawing to different department and then sign this and that.. but it's worth to know.. Work from colleague, was the testing analysis on a product with a software. That was considered as bundle of work! haha! work of never ending. But no harm to do more with the advantage of getting know the problem with the software too..These two weeks back home, the first feeling was tired and wanna to get sleep. The day reached home by 7sth, really tired and slept early! Dont ever think that 7sth was okay, but travelling alone on the road was so boring!

Last Saturday went JB The Pulai Spring Golf Resort for SSI Schaefer Annual Dinner 2009. I was invited too.. haha!! i am just a trainee, yet. 28 tables, only got 4 tables of chinese including VVIP.. haiz the rest are malays. Around 5 tables are foreigners and 1 tables of indians, if not mistaken.. Very happy in the dinner as one colleague became our topic.. our table was at the most front from VVIP.. we were seem to be the noisest one as all are men somemore except one girl. haha! Reached home around 2am after fetching one colleague back BP. Sunday went Segamat somemore, actually quite exhausted when i get back home at night.

Today really haiz with the printer.. as my room's printer was sent to ICU.. for issuing today, i need print and plot BOM and drawing for 10copies.. oh my god! the poor thing was the printer was far away from me. It's okay, the only problem was there were so many people using this printer to do work... i even waited for hours for getting one project's copies.. hope printer in my room faster get back! really dont want wait for so long queue.

Saved by traffic light

July 8, 2009 Wednesday Sunny

This post supposed to be uploaded by Monday since this incident happened on that day...

I felt i was very lucky that day. 3 months plus i am having my internship in Simpang Renggam. Every day traveling 45km from Yong Peng, passing by Ayer Hitam and Machap. Usually, i would skip the traffic light junction in front of Machap's PLUS toll by turning into the toll and turn out from the junction. But, that day i was not doing this. I saw the traffic light was countdowning about 13seconds and there were 5 cars and lorries queueing up in front of me. So, i knew that i could not jump the queue within that 13seconds. If i jump queue, the traffic light might turn green when i turned into the toll. Meanwhile, i saw my colleague was just 2 cars in front of me! He came from Batu Pahat. He skipped the way and took the shortcut. When the traffic light turned green, i proceeded my way. And, i saw my colleague was at the roadside... because being halted by police! Oh my god, if i jumped the queue, then i would be summoned to the court. The police was giving the summon to court! They did not want to give the penalty. After reaching office, my colleague said he was summoned to Kluang court at September. Luckily i did not jump queue at that time. If not, how am i going to the court at September as my new semester start?
I felt lucky...

魔羯座 Capricorn

美国独立日 星期六 晴

以下文章来自facebook。超准的！！！

魔羯座

年 轻的魔羯都是很单纯的，我想他们也不会知道自己将从天使变成恶魔，魔羯座的人天生善良，感情也都很脆弱，也许会因为一些很小的事情难过很长时间，所以他们 通常在表面表现的酷酷的与事隔离的样子，其实他们只是不希望让别人看到他脆弱的一面，坚强，理智，承受是魔羯的代名词，他们并不是很随便的表达自己所想， 他们希望了解身边所有人的性格，并不是因为好奇，好象只是因为一种安全感，为了保护自己魔羯生出了一种特殊能力。　　　　　　魔羯相对任何星座来比能在最 段时间看出一个人的性格无论他们在如何隐藏，这点很像天蝎但是他们却看不出对方的心，他们很容易就会了解到他们身边每一个人的优缺点，但是他们通常不会说 出来，也不会太介意，所有的魔羯都很包容对方请记得，如果有一只魔羯指出你的缺点那一定是友善的，虽然他们会用一种讽刺的口气来指出．　　　　　朋友（最 喜欢装傻的星座）　　魔羯的人都很没有安全感，他们喜欢在任何人面前装傻，这可不是一般的装傻能力，魔羯人聪明就在于这点，他们认为只有傻子在会不牵扯到 任何伤害，与其做一个聪明的人不如当一个傻子平凡而又随意，如果不是值得魔羯相信的朋友魔羯永远不会让对方知道自己会有智慧，而无论安全与不安全魔羯对朋 友都很真，他们很珍惜些朋友。　　　他们最希望获得朋友的信任，如果从一个朋友那里得不到信任，他不会再与这个朋友交往下去．和魔羯接触过的人都会认为他 们脾气很好，好的似乎发傻，其实他们并不是脾气好，只是他们很会装，因为他们了解身边的朋友的所有性格，所以他们在包容对方，就算你做了什么过分的事，他 们也早就想考虑好如果对方为什么会这样做，最明显一点，你们可以去看看身边魔羯的朋友，无论你怎么做那些魔羯都不会很惊讶的，其实他们已经知道你为什么会 这样了．魔羯的交友观也很随便，他们可能会和贵族很好，也可能会和乞丐聊天，一切的一切只是心灵的交往，很少有魔羯会有势力眼，除非你这个人品太差了。　 　　　　感情（超级白痴）　魔羯的人傻的可以，他们并不了解爱情，但是他们只知道爱的感觉，对于他们任何感情的表达都是一种感觉，他们很认真的感受每一个 感觉，大部分感觉都可以一个人去感觉，最失败的爱却要两个人，傻傻的魔羯一开始会认为，爱你是我自己的事情和你没关系，可是到后来越来越感觉不是滋味，于 是开始对对方表白，表白成功后却不知道如何走下一步，也许是太不浪漫在作祟，魔羯的人可能会拿任何事情开玩笑，但是在爱情方面只要他说出'我爱你'或者话 题谈到将来结婚，那么他绝对不是在开玩笑，魔羯很物质，但是这点和金牛处女不一样，他们的物质表现在爱上，他们认为给所爱的人带来无限的物质的就是最大的 幸福，因为他们很自卑，唯一能用自己努力获得来的就只有物质了。　　　当自己努力的去让自己所爱的人幸福的时候，自己所爱的人却因为其他的其他离开了他， 而到最后自己却不明白自己到底做错了什么，真是可怜的家伙们．